Ana, I was shocked to read your post and hope you are holding up alright.
I lost my dad 8 years ago and it was the most devastating thing I've ever gone through. Know that you have friends here, as well as in your real life, who can help get you through your grief. I hope positive memories are flooding in right now. Maybe do some artwork in his memory to express your feelings. I'm just so sorry. (**Cheri comforts Ana**) It DOES get better with time. And, don't forget, you have your trip to look forward to. I'm here if you need anything at all.
Cheri